Monday, August 3, 2009.
translation: Thats Life
So besides the fact that i’m LAUGHING MY ASS OFF because Anna remembers this “B*witched” song from waaaay back in the day that i swore i thought I was the only one listening to it, this phrase really strikes a nerve right now.
More things have been bothering me than usual. Maybe reality is finally sinking into this perfect lifestyle I’ve been living for the last 2 months or so. Everything was going greaat and I was sure living the dream, but for some reason a lot seems to be falling apart all at once.
Despite the fact that I’m completely nocturnal, this blog is being written at 3am therefore i don’t have the energy OR patience to list these blunders of mine but to sum it up: car shopping is taking longer than I thought, and my dad and I aren’t exactly on the same page when it comes to my first car.. frustrating, but that’s life. *Refer to the “He Could Be the One” blog* Yeaah, So two actually did become one, and for about 2 days i was sitting pretty, couldn’t be happier with the way things were, but I shouldn’t have spoke so soon because there’s been some trouble in paradise, and that one got annoying, so i went to the other one, but who the hell am I kidding with that? In a weeks time he’ll be thousands of miles away. So those 2 great things/people is currently at zero, which sucks, but hey..that’s life. Not having a job is starting to take a toll on my restlessness, not to mention my bank account. but guess what. that’s life. I’m extremely bored and lonely at my apartment when no ones here but yep, you guess it. that’s life.
Instead of my usual pessimistic outlook on life, ima try to switch it up a little and see the brighter side of things. I’m glad that at 2 and 3 oclock in the morning, even though we’re both not in the most chipper moods or situations, Anna and I can reaaallly have a good laugh off of something as simple as an old memory. I’m blessed to have such a bestfriend that’s there to make me laugh at all hours of the night, I love ya chief. I should consider myself lucky, getting a car. And its not like my dad’s gonna get me a bucket. Sure there will be nicer cars than the one i get, but there will be uglier ones too! As for the boys? who was I kidding? haha Since when has trying to have 2 relationships ever worked for anyone? One of which being potentially long distant. As great as it would be for it to work out, I’m sure I’ll manage with out, I always have, and I’ve come this far, so it shouldn’t be an issue. after all, i am Ms. Independent(= haha & nothings set in stone about neither working out, just me over thinking things as alwaays. Plus, Sfsu enrollment says there will be 30 thousand PLUS students, HALF or almost half at least should be boys.. I’m assuming, which leaves me with literally about 15,000 options. Not to mention I just made a facebook so I can already start meeting people(= My possibilities are endless and I’m bound to find someone(; Not having a job has been a great vacation for me. With all these changes going on in my life I couldn’t have picked a better time myself to take a break from the work force. Although I have to monitor my spending a little more, there have been many plusses to not having to work. i.e. staying up as late as this, REALLY having a summer, and no co-worker drama. Yes, I said it. I’m bored. BORED at my apartment 99.9% of the time if no ones here, I wish it wasn’t like that, maybe cause I’m not completely settled in? Who knows, anyway I’m sure I’ll adapt to the loneliness and who knows maybe it will even be good for me! I’m going to Tahoe next Sunday with my Dad’s whole side of the family for a week, that should be fun, and not boring or lonely at all with all those people in one house haha, i’m excited.
So for now, the glass is half full, the grass is greener on the other side, and there is always a rainbow after the rain. yeah corny, i know. But i figure better this attitude than emo-cheemo captain of the teamo(= Haha. Things may throw us for a loop in life but we’ll eventually get over it and realize that that made us who we are today.. and c’est la vie. Goodnight.
