Tuesday. August 18, 2009.
1am.
Haven’t blogged in forever and a day cause I been on vacation mode. Tahoe in a nut shell = HOT AS FUCK, 3rd degree sunburn the first day, Yahtzee and Rummikub all day everyday, swimmming, shopping, family. Overall pretty fun, family bonding but 7 days is a lonnng time -_- I really missed my friends….(segway)
I SAW THEM TODAY(= after like what? 2 weeks? I finallllly saw my girls. 5 on it hang out at my place just sitting around the table catching up for hours. It was really good to see them, we went way too long without seeing each other which was partly my fault, i.e. Lake Tahoe. They start school on Wednesday and although i don’t start till a week later, I’m not all that excited because the people I would want to spend my last days of summer with will already be at school =( suuper sad. It’s really hitting me that we’re not going to the same school. Not to sound totally gay, like I know I’ll meet people, but college would be so fun if I had all my bestfriends in the same class as me! But that’s a choice I made sooo I gotta deal with it. Ahhhh! I’m emo. Next subject.
Damn college is starting in about a week. I feel every emotion! Happy, excited, nervous, scared. eveerrraaythannng. haha I’m sure things will be okay cause I guess I felt this way before highschool too? I didn’t even go back to school shopping! Do people even do that for college? Haha. Maybe I should buy a whole new wardrobe because at this point I have no classes with anyone I know, meaning I can be whoever I want, BUT I kinda like who I am.. ANNNNND I’m basically broke so I most likely WON’T do that(= hahhaa.
It was so sad today, I went to Party Warehouse to give my favorite ex-coworker Connie the gift I got her in Tahoe. And damn, when you haven’t seen someone you love in hella long, and they cry when they see you, that shit is noo joke:’( I missss work, that was like my second family for 2 years, and it was so sudden and FUCKED UP the way I left. Seriously contemplating whether or not to go back. I know how to do everything, they’re flexible, i live close and i love MOST of the people, but yet too that was my first job, and there’s so much more out there that maybe it’s time to moove on. I mean with all these changes going on, maybe that’s another one to add to the list.
My love life remains non-existent but I’m really not complaining at the moment. The sweetest most perfect guy turned into an asshole (story of my life. HAHAH jk) annd the already asshole is.. still an asshole. haha kiddding. But I’m pretty much over it dude. Gave ‘em the ultimatum that I’m a down ass chick, girlfriend or bestfriend, because sadly I could really go either way with it. For every “pro” there’s two “cons”. Of course he had a million and one reasons for the way he is but I heard it all before so what the fuck ever. I just don’t feel like playin the game anymore, homeboy is literally stuck in highschool & I’m college bound in about a week. Love to hate em and hate to love em. If I don’t find someone at sfsu I’m an official lesbian. jk. haha but seriously I’m not worrried about being a single lady, hasn’t killed me so far. Haha. P.S. Have fun playing UFC and COD all day while I’m at college meeting people, going to parties & finding mature guys=P I know its gonna bug yaa and to tell you the truth I really can’t wait haha. Bouta gett a taste of ya own medicine. Gonna pick em up in a little bit & get some Jack in the Box as alwaaaays & probably get in a fight. Cool how I can predict this shit now. Hahh. Maybe I’ll just go to beedd.
I can’t believe summers ending. This was truly one of the (if not) BEST summer of my life. I’m reallllllly gonna misss it, but I’m excited for what Fall has in store for me, I’m sure with school starting up it’ll go by soo quiiickkk and before I know it it’ll be winter time. Damn, time flies.
I’m going downtown & to pier 39 tomorrow with my older sister & her bf. HOPEFULLY find some decorations or artwork for my apartment cause my shits bare as fuck and its starting to get on my nerves. Haha.
Summers ending, schools starting. Relationships ending, (hopefully) relationships starting (; My employment ending, soon to be starting again? Out of mom& dads house, into my own. No more rides from mom, I drive myself. Every new beginning is another new beginnings end. GOODNIGHT.
