My mom had her second hip replacement operation today. She had her first one just days before my 16th birthday and now her second one today, just days before my nineteenth. Since she works at a school it makes the most sense for her to have the surgery as soon as summer starts so she’ll be ready to go back to school in August. Logical? yes. Fair? No. It’s ruining my life. It’s all I can think about. When I’m not at work or keeping busy, all I can do is think about my mom. It hurts to see my mom in pain when she’s just walking a few steps. She hasn’t been able to walk the dog, which she did almost every day &she loved doing, in almost a year. Every time I go to my parents’ to visit and go in the kitchen to try and find some food, I always find a new medicine that my mom has to take. The worst part is my mom just really doesn’t seem as happy as she used to be. Here she is trying to stay positive and when I hugged her yesterday and said, “I hope everything goes well tomorrow Mom.” She said, “Oh I’m sure it will be fine.” When how could she NOT be scared? And now I’ve even started crying writing about this because all I can think about is my mom sleeping alone in a hospital bed tonight. And my Dad sleeping at home alone tonight. I guess it’s because of how much closer I’ve gotten to my parents since I’ve moved out, I’m just so scared. I think it’s really fucked up that my mom is only 48 years old and has had to have two major leg operations as if she’s a 90 year old woman. Maybe I wrote this because we haven’t really talked about this big thing as a family. Everyone is just trying to seem stronger than the others. Her surgery went well today, tomorrow she is learning how to walk with a metal rod in her leg. I hope that her recovery is quick and painless. Please keep my mom in your prayers. I don’t know what I would do with out her.
